Underneath Your Love

I spent the day today going through all things weird. Was supposed to start doing stats and maec, but shit it. Only productive thing I did for school was printing out my lecture notes and tutorials. So here is a post to sum up on the useless yet interestingly weird things I did today.

I researched on lucid dreams, and how it worked. Inception felt so real for the moment when I was watching documentaries explaining it. Lucid dreams happen when you are being conscious in your dreams, and being able to control your dream. So you can fly in your dreams and warp your surroundings. Never had it before, because I always end up sleeping and not remembering my dreams. But how amazing would that be, to gain control of something that defies reality. But the down part is that sometimes these lucid dreams turn out to be terrible nightmares. And the last thing you would want to is to remember the nightmare.

I also watched videos of life in North Korea and how N.Koreans sneaked out of it. So thankful of being raised in Singapore and not there. It's so sad to see how bad the extent of the government's propaganda goes to, their poor standard of living, and them being brainwashed to think that the whole world is against them. It really is saddening. I hope one day they will be saved and cruelty will be put to an end.

Lastly, I finally managed to outsource a desired company for my internship.

I'm just waiting for Year 2 to start so I can defer out of the March internship. When I was asked to choose a department I would prefer to go to, I was just stunned. I've been giving a lot of thought to my future jobs. But when it struck me that I'm finally doing an internship, it means that I'm growing up. I'm turning 18. I'm going to eventually stop studying and start working. I'll no longer be young. I won't have the time to even enjoy myself. All that I'm in will eventually stop. There will be no more room for mistakes. There would be a whole world of expectations on your shoulders.

I would most likely be heading towards the HR/events/marketing comm sector. Not too business-y, but more social/media area of business. I hope things will be different when I finally turn 18, I get what people mean when they say that as you grow older, higher chances that you'll fall out of your walk with God. I want to include Him so much in my life, but I'm too caught up with my own problems and self-goals that I'm always forgetting my main aim in life.

So yeah, turning 18 sounds like a huge challenge to me. Because I want to grow up fast in a way that I can accomplish as many things as possible, but at the same time, I want to stay young and free, and stay close to God.

Wordy post that I have here. So in summary, I wasted my day today.

When I have so many things on my mind right now. Untouched revision, incomplete projects, group 3 prep, and I'm already worried for my activities during march/apr break when it hasn't even started at all.

Oh well, I sort of can't wait for all these to be over. Have a great chinese new year :)