Dare you to move

Yes it was true. Starhub did block my blog. BUT, my parents conveniently decided to switch to Singtel, so I'm able to access all the blogspots again. (hurray!)

Anyway, Chinese New Year just ended. I must say, this CNY has got to be the most un-festive CNY I've had in my 19 years of living.

Maybe it's cos I don't have much of a tradition to follow. I remember when I was young, my dad's side would come to my place to visit my grandma. And I would go over to my grandaunt's place to visit my mum's side. But... with the passing of both my grandma and grandaunt over the years. I've realised CNY isn't what it used to be. The traditions I supposedly grew up with all stopped. My cousins all grew up. They've gotten their own families. I see my relatives and cousins less often. I remembered growing up and playing with them. But now, it's no longer the same joy we had when we were kids.

Maybe it's all part of growing up.

My sister's pretty settled in Brisbane. My brother's all ready and set for business with his cafe and internship opportunities. My dad is semi retired. My mum is still the same ol' housemaker, but I can clearly see her age catching up on her. I look up to the people in my family so much. They're so accomplished in their own ways. My dad is probably the most hardworking and the most humblest man I know. My mum is the most generous and selfless being. My sister, the wisest and most mature lady. She's known what she wanted since she went to uni, and has chased and worked towards her goal. My brother, the most wittiest and business-minded of the family.

I sometimes wonder if my parents knew think of how their kids would grow out to be. If they knew they would live to their very current age. I sometimes wonder if my siblings would think if this was really what they wanted to do and had doubts on it. If they aimed to go so far and high. Life is really so full of uncertainties.

I am now at this stage of life, where I am making PROBABLY THE BIGGEST DECISIONS OF MY LIFE. The choice of friends, lifestyles, university options and degrees, even the thought of really settling down overseas.

I honestly love Singapore. I really do. I am thankful for the education and experiences I've gotten here. But there really is more to life than just chasing grades and qualifications. It's sad that our society can't accept anything else besides those. Oh well. If I really do love it over there, I really wouldn't mind starting afresh there. It will be a challenge, and what makes it worse is the uncertainties of what's going to happen there. Who knows, I may just come crawling back to this little red dot. But, I would really like to step out and go far just to see a new perspective towards the world. At least seek a better purpose in life, rather than just slaving it out for a damn GPA above 3.5 (probably the most realistic grade I can get right now).

This post is a whole whirlpool of random things hahaha. Ending this post with a few pictures from my birthday weekend spent with the favourite girl Wenhui at Mandarin. It was a good 19th birthday spent with her, my closest friends from Poly, my fatass kiddos and the ever lovely KCP girls.

Wenhui sometimes thinks she's my lover. I mean... SERIOUSLY LOL LOOK AT THAT.

(p/s she made me stay in the toilet for 10mins while she blew up 5 pathetic balloons....)

A sweet surprise from the close ones in NP

Lol and she won't get over the balloons

And a wonderful 7th year of a Jan baby celebration with the girls

Spent the last night @ Liat Bux till 3/4am just chatting up about life and our future

It was a good month. Thanks for reading through this long post. Though I don't know who still reads this blog hahahahahahahah.

GONG XI FA CAI. THIS IS MY HAPPY EXCITED CNY FACE BUT NO ACTUALLY MY EXAMS ARE IN A WEEK. AND I AM FINDING REASONS LIKE BLOGGING TO AVOID STUDYING. GOOD JOB RACHEL. GONG XI FA CAI YOUR FACE.